Sequel to "A Thinkful Friday"

...or more like a backtrack. Or a translation.

I don't think I explained myself very well. Yet, maybe I did, I haven't gone back over that post. I just wanna be a little more detailed (I like detail), bullet-style.
* God has not shown me a specific place to be. My future is still kind of fuzzy.
* God HAS given me a ministry--through the training He has blessed me with to become a SLP. He has also given me other kinds of training, like how to cook good home-cooking for an army of men, how to care for people with disabilities in all aspects of their lives, and...well, how to change a poopy diaper even counts as training in my book. I still practice every once in a while, trying to weaken my gag reflex. This may actually strengthen it. Anyways, I'm rambling now...so on to more details.
* The part about my desires in the last post, well, what I mean most about that was this: God has not CHANGED my desires, but He has shown me that those desires are given to me--gifts that He can use to bless His people and to bring Him glory. I have often prayed that He would take them from me because it makes life difficult to swallow when you're out on your own and don't want to be. He has given me an answer to WHY He won't take these desires from me. He won't do it because they are necessary in order to be a compassionate, loving, giving servant. They are necessary for selflessness. And, with them left unfulfilled, I am left weaker. This makes Him stronger by shining forth His glory the most. It's not me, it's Him.
* Through all this, He's given me an indescribable peace and contentment with where I am--relationship-wise anyway. I feel like I could be doing more for Him and reaching out more to people around me, so I'm not fully content where I am, with myself. I am not dwelling on wanting a family as much as I used to, though.
* Maybe it'll happen someday, who knows? But God can use me more if I don't have the responsibilities of a wife and mother. I have more time and more freedom to serve now, as a single young lady, than I have at any other point in my life (well, excluding my childhood when the majority of the time was spent exploring the creek or a book about beavers). And, I have more room in my heart to share with those who need...need...REALLY NEED love.