In the past few days, weeks, months...

I haven't posted in a while. When I started up this blog, I intended to post on a regular basis for family and friends. I have obviously not been too keen to follow through with my intentions!

I have now come back to the college speech clinic for my second semester of clinical practicum. I *hope* to graduate in August of this year. I say that because I am always doubting my chances of succeeding. God has given me ability, but I find myself in doubt of that ability all the time. I just don't feel "good enough" to be helpful to others. It's an ongoing struggle, mostly when I'm focused on me. That's the problem right there. It's not ME, it's HIM. It's not my ability, my personality, my life...it's HIS. When Kristina gets on her own track, she always messes things up--royally.

I was reading through some metaphors today and came across one that fits nicely with my blog: "writing is thinking on paper". Or, in this case, thinking on an 8" Crystalbrite computer screen.

I dropped facebook a few weeks ago, and I intend to be facebook-less for the remainder of my days. There is a lot of good in facebook, but communicating without thinking is much easier to do now with the social networks of our internet world than it was before them. Well, at least doing so without the instant ramifications of face-to-face speaking-your-mind-without-thinking-it-over.

I absolute love what I'm doing and am reinforced all the time that speech therapy is right. It is my ministry. I've got a long way to go before I'm a polished therapist, but regardless, I am enjoying the ride. I'm still trying to learn to juggle all the new responsibilities, but the experience has been a blessing.

In less than a week I have learned SO MUCH!

On a side note to anyone who's been praying about a certain client who was giving me some trouble and almost made me cry--God is in control! The client was much different today and I feel that we made some progress, at least in building rapport, that may open the doors for me to aid in helping him.

I say aid in it because ultimately it is God who will make the difference. Maybe through my hands, but by His will.

I'm just so excited!